The title of this blog came to me before I had any idea what to write about. I have tried to think of something profound or helpful, but I am drawing a blank. My day started out good enough. We had a fun morning at our neighbors house, then saw an afternoon movie. I think it started after the baby's nap. She woke up after a short nap and was really fussy. She has been doing a lot of that lately, whining and fussing. We all enjoyed the movie. William is in his busy season, so he is working a lot, so I try to get the girls out and about to help them and to help my patience stretch through the long days! Anyway, we stop to pick up an order from Chipotle's for dinner and they messed it up and took much longer than they should have. Let me tell you, by the time I made it to the car I was so irritated that my face was burning. After allowing some not so choice words and phrases escape my lips, I started to wonder what my deal was! Why in the world was I so annoyed just because dinner was a bit late? I would hope that people would not get so annoyed with me when I am late. What is the condition of my heart today that I would have that type of attitude and display it in front of my kids?
The easy answer would be that we all have bad days. I am stressed, busy, burdened, blah, blah. I could go on and on. The real answer is that I don't know. It certainly has nothing to do with the lady at Chipotle's. God said that David was a man after His own heart. I am not. Thank goodness God does not get angry with me when I am late doing His will! What was David's heart like?
I think the first hint is in 1 Samuel 19 verse 7 when Samuel sees Eliab and thinks that he is the one God wants him to annoint. God tells him "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."
What is the Lord seeing today when He looks at my heart? Mostly selfishness I would say. Selfishness that leads to annoyance when the evening did not go my way. Selfishness that leads to me putting my angry feelings over that of my children feeling uncomfortable while they are stuck in a car hearing me rant and rave. Selfishness that leads to my not being and showing thanks for the fact that I was able to enjoy my children tonight and provide them with food.
Father, forgive me for my selfish heart. Create in me a heart that is pleasing to you, a heart that longs and thirsts for you.
1 comment:
Hey Kristi,
Thanks for the link!
I totally get the point you're making here, but I don't think you should compare yourself too unfavorably to David. After all, it was selfishness that caused him to take Bathsheba and have Uriah killed; wasn't it? You may not be perfect but neither was David - even if he was called a man after God's own heart. :o)
Anyway, just wanted to say hi. Hope to catch you at the gym sometime.
Talk to Ya Later, Tammy
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